A Fun Side To Psychosis?

I tend to wake up each day around eleven o’clock but I do not jump out of bed instead I lie there and just let my brain go loose. Some days it is fixated on what I had dreamed of the night before and other days it is trying to plan out what I need to accomplish before returning to my bed later that day and other days I just do my best to keep up. I never know what the next thought in my head is going to be and there is a sort of thrill in this so I lie there in bed just watching from the sidelines.

The realization that I have very little control over what goes on between my ears is a reality that I have accepted and for the majority of my day I rely on the chemical assistance to follow that straight line but for that hour each morning I live in the insanity of my illness and I must confess I enjoy it. Now I know better to allow the chaos to continue throughout the entire day as it does not take a rocket scientist to realize jumping from a speeding train is going to leave a mark. Seroquel keeps the speed in check, Cymbalta keeps the small grin on my face with a little help from Effexor, Temazapam allows me to sleep at night but insanity brings the most joy even if it is only for an hour each day. Take care

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