It has been a rather stressful week with workers coming in and out of the house to repair the damage that was caused during the spring fall. Some how the shingles let go on the roof which then allowed the runoff from the melting snow to get behind the main wall causing pretty extensive damage. The good part of all of this is that home insurance is picking up the bill but the bad part is the routine that tends to keep me moving in the right direction has been all over the map.

Sleep has been tricky this week and even though I tend to get a good eight hours a night my body is reacting like I am not sleeping at all. I have tried to mess with my meds a bit with the hope that I can fall asleep more quickly and earlier but this experiment is not working to well.

My poor ole brain is trying to stay focused on one thing which is the process of getting this house ready to sale, put on the market and then finding a new place for me to reside but I am having difficulty staying focused as my triggers tend to be a little bit sensitive and I am not really sure why. The obvious answer would be my stress level is high so it translates over but I think it is more then that just not sure what.

The timing for dealing with this new issue came at a good time for I can still update this post regularly by resurrecting old posts that deal with Borderline Personality Disorder for this is the month for awareness. The main problem I have at the moment is the same one I had three decades ago and that is my emotional toolbox to deal with a crisis is basically empty with the only tool in place is a shovel to bury the issue. I know this is not a great solution but to be quite honest I really do not know what else to do.

So if my posts are all over the place, well more then usual, this is partly the reason why. Recovery from mental illness is possible but my goodness it sure takes a long time especially when you are trying to build a stable foundation with no concept of design. Take care.

Related posts:

1. Lyrics In My Head Will Not Go Away
2. I Need To Get Out Of My Head
3. A Mock Interview
4. Control
5. Appointment Aftermath
6. The Mental Illness Excuse
7. Judgemental People Piss Me Off
8. The Difficulty Of Treatment
9. The Funny People In White Coats
10. A Picky Memory